Finding Freedom

I learned of the balm in Gilead (Jer 8:22) years ago while doing the Kay Arthur study called Lord Heal My Hurts. I learned of my Jehova Rapha – the God who heals; and that there is a way to be made whole again. I guess that is where I stopped, or stalled my healing. There is a HUGE difference between learning something intellectually, and then allowing your heart to receive it; be open to it. At the time that was too terrifying to me. I didn’t want to feel that deep pain anymore. So I smoldered instead for another 15 years. Stupid huh? 

Now I am choosing to let the feelings come, and to deal with them to be released from them – the option of stuffing them and letting them eat at me is over.  I thought I was brave before. Now I am going to God for a better kind of courage – HIS. Action over rides fear … so here we go!

If you are a fellow traveller on this road we are all on together; and you need a little support or you need to know you are not walking alone – welcome.  Join me on my journey and we will walk together. Sometimes just knowing that someone out there is holding your hand and praying for you is enough to help you put one foot in front of the other.

Keep going, we all need to … that’s why today I’m choosing to write again. I’m not 100% sure why I am blogging all this, but I think it’s because I need to know I’m not the only one out there too.  Writing is part of my healing. It’s been years; but the dreamer who used to take the time to pour out her thoughts and feelings and passions on paper has grown up (a little I hope) and I need to take this old part of me and re-introduce her to myself and this life again.

Welcome back Nicky. I’ve missed you.